Faith, Babies, And Trusting God

I have pirated a couple of pictures from Sarah's site of my little grandson Kellen. I put the most recent one as the desktop picture and everytime I see it I just want to kiss his little face. From day one he has been my "little Kissy face boy". Although when he gets older he may not appreciate that nickname:-) He is so darn cute! I suppose all grandparents feel that way about their grandbabies, but I really think Kellen is extra special :-)

His whole arrival into our family was a miracle, and because I do believe he is a heritage from the Lord for Matt and Sarah, I think the Lord has big plans for him.

The very first time I held him when they brought him home, I remember silently praying, "Lord bless this little guy, that he grows up to be an awesome man of God someday and has great impact for the kingdom of God."

If you read my first post about him and the kid's long journey in his adoption, you know that last year before his arrival was very emotionally difficult for Sarah and Matt. With so many disappointments, being taken advantage of and trials in faith, Kellen truly was and is a miracle.

I believe all babies are miracles, the whole pregnancy and birth process is in and of itself a miracle from God. And each child is a blessing. Too many people today don't think about that or even believe it. If they did there would not be such a thing as abortion or child abuse.

 The whole process has been a walk in faith. Honestly I do not know how anyone could make it through what the kids have gone through without a relationship with Christ and faith that the Lord was with them through it.

Sarah and I have both started doing a nine week bible study by Beth Moore called "Believing God".  It's amazing and really gets to the point of are you going to really trust and believe God or not? Sarah said Matt has begun the study also. It all boils down to this: Do you believe God, not just believe in Him but believe HIM? Do you believe He is who He says He is? Or do you believe what the world says about Him? 

I have always believed God, although that is not to say there were not times when I have doubted, but my times of doubt in no way affected the fact that God is who He says He is and can do what He says he can.  This bible study has impacted me mostly in the area of disipline.

Getting into the word every single day for a least and hour or two. Learning the scriptures that back up what I already believe. Learning the original greek and hebrew words behind the translastions. It's been really cool and I am only one week two, day two.

I wish there was a way to get through to every believe just how vitally important it is to mediate and study the word of God daily. Not just reading it but really digging in and studying what God has given us in His word. It is our sword ya know! How can you even being to win a battle without one of your greatest weapons??? And how can you even begin to have the kind of faith you need without the word? "Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the WORD". Romans 10:17

The journey of Kellen's adoption is not quite final yet, but I know the Lord brought this child into our lives for a purpose, and I do not believe He will allow anyone to take that blessing away. I believe (know, have no doubts, trust) God!

Been Awhile

Not the actual place we lived

I haven't posted anything to this site since my mom passed away Dec. 2006. I didn't realize it had been that long. I think in part it is because my mom is the one who really liked to read the posts I did here, about our life at the cabin. Since she's been gone I haven't thought much about those days. But I have decided it's kind of a waste to have this space and not utilize it.

My youngest son Christopher has been living with us for the last couple of years, so the subject of when we lived at the cabin comes up often. Of all the kids he loved living there the most. Must be because he was so little at the time.

Sarah hated it when she was there, which is understandable being a young girl and having to live with three brothers and no basic household necessities like running water, indoor plumbing or electricity.

In retrospect is was a much better place for the boys. With nature all around us, the creek to play and explore in, mountainsides to climb and caves to explore. It was a little boy's paradise.

There are times even still I do miss the simplicity of living there. Being surrounded daily by the beauty of nature. A lot of my faith in God is a result of living there. Having to minute by minute trust and believe He was always with us and always protecting us.

Too many times things happened that could have had tragic outcomes. But the Lord always protected us, and at no other time in my life have I felt His presence more or as often as when we lived there.

I had a keen sense of angels around us, and especially watching over the kids as they were out wandering or even playing by the creek. With my then husbands whacked out cousins showing up at all hours of the day or night, usually drunk or spun on meth, there were lots of times when I have no doubt each child had a guardian angel specifially assigned to them.

Yes I know that sounds unbelievable or even a bit like fantasy, but Jesus himself did say children have guardian angels. ""See that you do not look down on one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven". Matthew 18:10

And if Jesus says it is so, then it is so.

There were countless times I prayed and asked the Lord to protect us, there were times when I had to claim and speak out loud scripture such as "God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, of love and a sound mind". Or just simply, "fear not".

I am going to make an effort to continue posting about the time at the cabin as things come to my mind. And there may be times when I just sign on here to ramble...But then isn't that kind of what having a blog is all about anyway? :-)